It sinks in

 Day 2 at work was a flurry. There were back to back calls giving more details regarding the rationale of the move, the next steps and the way forward. There were channels created at work which were abuzz with rants, suggestions, advice and everything in between. While all this was going on I had my personal way of dealing with it. Taking the logical step, I started applying earnestly. I went through various options, started looking at linked in and started applying with which ever role looked suitable.

I asked all I knew to refer me to any openings that came forward. It seemed like hell had broken loose. It was a very scary scenario to be in. K and I started looking at finances and when funds would start to run dry in case I did not end up with a job. I technically have till end of this year in my current organisation with a probably decent payout since I was being made redundant. I did not want to rest on my laurels though. I decided that for my career it would be way more beneficial if I moved on and started working at a new place, learning new things. The environment at work was pretty dry and listless as well. No one in the team seemed to have any enthusiasm to work. Everyone was mulling over their scenario. K and I went to the gym during lunch to take our minds off the impending worries. Once back, since there was nothing tangible for me to progress I took it slow. I did not even bother to keep the laptop on. Seeing me move around from room to room aimlessly, K hovered around to give assurance. I joked "I am loosing my job, you better keep working to retain yours" To which K replied, "Trust me I do not envy you at all".

Once it was time for the kids to return, life kicked in as usual. It was awesome to have them chatter about their day and fill the house with their random banter. It really kicked in some life in the house. In the evening I received a call from a consultant who said he was recruiting for a role. And small world, the hiring manager was someone I had worked with before. It was a dazzling ray of hope to hear those words and I put forth my application in the speed of light. The day had started pretty murky with the office calls painting our careers in darkness but then it had taken a positive turn by the evening. 

To take a negative turn again!! At night when I tried to get on to LinkedIn, I was blocked. It was as if my world had come crashing down! How was I to function, how was I to apply for roles, what was going to happen! It seemed like the absolute end of the world. And again the water works started. K tried his best to console me. We did the necessary steps recommended to verify me. He raised a support ticket since only a logged in person can raise it! It was a bit manic. But then there is only so much one can at 0030 hours. There was a normal school day coming up and I decided to cry myself to bed :|