Thursday, January 19, 2012

Bucket List

Well, I am waiting. Yep - for the inevitable. For the end of life as I have always known. 

Carrying itself was a novelty. The feeling of life inside you is surreal. The inconveniences it poses is as they say in "corny-land" - preparation for what lies ahead. There are moments of agony and pure exhilaration. There are times when you wish it would all end while there are others when you are ok with it going on forever for you are clueless what to do when its all over. But then as my midwife summed it beautifully - kids are the good things in life and all good things make us wait, and cos they make us wait, we love them so much. Hmmm true!!!

Waise, main aise dadi maa types batein kyun kar rahi hoon. Yea sab mujhe shobha nehi deta :D So I am going to revert to original self. Now my mobility is severely restricted thanks to all the Ahem "nutritious" food that I am consuming (carrot cakes and ferero rochers and margarita pizzas ;) )which have added Dunlop tyres to me. I can barely walk 20 mins without panting like a hippopotamus who ran a triathlon.  K's paranoia is also at its zenith with rules imposed as to how far I am supposed to travel at what time of the day and how I am supposed to get from point A to point B. I am like ok Saar what ever you say :P 

So that has given me lots and lots of - TIME. And I have thought of a bucket list. Thus every single day, I catch up on friends :) Then watch a good movie - an interest I am trying to re-inculcate. Read some pages of a good book. Then of course there is the usual of cooking and eating good food :) 

The movement to a new house has also landed me with a lot of additional chores. So there is also setting the house in order. With K's office being across the street, thankfully I have his company for all the meals of the day - which is a great bonus. So its a good run now - eat, relax and be merry - for tomorrow we may have sleepless nights :)

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Time for the ritual- Yea the year end post!

Now is the time for the year end wala post J
Don’t believe it, that in a day this years going to be over! This year went really really fast did nt it? There were no big milestones that I crossed but there were some junctures which I crossed that made this year extra special. The most epic one was our decision to become errr… parents. Scary thought eh? I know. I would nt trust myself with a child, let alone a baby. But then I dunno, I feel one fine day you just feel ready to take on the journey. Yes, any right minded person would think – Whoa are you crazy? But yea buddy – there are quirks in nature. Life does bring you to a stage where you see past the dirty diapers, the puke, the terrible twos and assume you can cope with all that. And take that big leap of faith. I could go on and on about how the whole thing can make you feel, but then I would become arduous. So dive we did and mind you those were some months of anticipation.

We had reached a point where we had given up – yes we are impossibly impatient. We were rather looking forward to the parents making a trip. When they reached, it was sheer bliss. The little one bed apartment accommodated 6 people! There was cooking, chatting, shopping, roaming; the house was literally on fire. I also acted guide after a long time organising trips sans K to Scotland, London and the Bath. It was some serious fun. On the last week of my parent’s 3 week stay, we got the confirmation of the new +1 in the offing. It was delirious to break the news with everyone being there in person. There is a reason God makes one wait for good stuff. The smiles (and tears for the moms) on everyones face add so much splendour to the whole fact. The icing on the cake was, 2 people I am pretty close to are also due within weeks of me – one 2 weeks ahead and the other 4 weeks hence. We don’t constantly swap stories but do get some reassurance from the fact that we are all sailing in the same boat. J

My parents stay drew to a close and it was terrible to bid them goodbye. But Amma was to be around for some more months, so there was not a sudden vacuum either.

Life moved on as I cleared 2 technical certifications – phew atleast something to write home about.  This brings me to a post by Nancy where she rues about merely existing. I feel that it is not a bad thing entirely. Yes there are young guns who take the world by storm, there are achievers who make us feel like nothings and there are qualifications and titles which make us feel incompetent – but then is nt everyone a mere face in the crowd? I do not propagate complacency, but then I don’t think we fare any less by doing our day to day tasks with diligence and honesty. I feel every person has a role to play in the fabric of the world. Just like the much clich├ęd every drop makes an ocean, every person’s carbon footprint adds up, every person’s activities add up to some economic, social or ethical good. We might be part of a mass, but our actions might end up making parts of a product that improves the quality of life somewhere. We might be mere parents but we might end up giving values and ethics to future world citizens who may in turn bring momentous changes. We might be merely “existing” but our actions might be the reason someone else smiles and goes on. Well sounds philosophical and my philosophy might be totally misplaced. Hence I shall stop blabbering.

As the year draws to a close, there are lot of new things to look forward to. We a moving to a new house which will be literally a stone’s throw away from K’s work place. Life will be different there. We will be a getting a new member to the family and life will never be the same again. And we have to brace for the zillion uncertainties that life is anyways going to throw at us. 

So heres wishing good changes and the strength to bear them in the New Year! Hope the year brings the best for all! Happy New Year!