Day 3 post impact

 The next day was a bit funny. We resumed our normal ceremonies at work which includes the morning status call. Most of the people who had been impacted sounded as if they had cried through the night. Our manager who was "safe" went through the motions as normal. He was totally tone deaf and went on through all the updates if 50% of his team wasnt at the risk of redundancy. I felt totally disengaged from everything. It was not something I was ok with. I had been through redundancy cycle in another organization. It is something that happens, there is no lie in it. But the way it was being dealt out in my current place seemed very inhumane. There was just a 30 minutes call to tell nearly 500 people who belonged to our location, that your job is not longer relevant as of December. It was a news being dealt to a large number of people in one fell swoop, where people were being treated as mere numbers. I was definitely not ok with it. So I was totally disconnected from what ever was happening. 

I had received an email the previous evening scheduling an initial conversation with another organization. I was quite excited for it. In the past 3 years here, I had been casually looking at roles. But I was very casual about. I applied to a role that looked good enough, not reading too much. I was of course not receiving much calls. So I was under the impression that the market was not looking good at all, and it would be super hard to secure a role. So when I got a call from a company for an initial conversation it gave me hope. At least my dear resume had landed on someone's desk and they approved of it and had decided to give me a call. The meeting was in the afternoon, and since I was finding it hard to concentrate on anything, I decided to take a long walk. 

It was nice and relaxing to go on the walk in the lovely cloudy weather, listening to an audio book. There are small joys even if everything seems gloom and doom. I came back from the walk and got on with the meeting. The conversation was very informal and she confirmed that I would be put forth for the next round. It boosted my confidence immensely. It gave me a positivity and something to look forward to. There was a certain joy in actively preparing for another role and not being pestered to do ones day job. 

Evening I started preparing technical interviews. I also started looking for companies and applying to them directly. It was hard work, but there was an element of single minded focus. I had to forge ahead. I had to move on.